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I was surrounded by people
in masks who mirrored me
Yet, underneath it were cowards
that saw “weakness” in empathy.
How worthless of an individual
can you be?
You thought that outward projection
could destroy such beings..
SO, you mimic every soul you
come across,
Only to break them into the point
of “no return”
I hope people like “you” can understand
and learn…
That there will come a day where
you will have nothing but the mask
you hide behind..
and Yes the truth will reveal itself and expose
the monster you’ve turned into.
Yes, you will learn
And it will Burn…

©AKD

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Letters to Myself

A part of me
spills with the ink.
Bleeding,
beneath the thin sheets,
with lines creasing my feelings
that burns with time and silence,
of each period that represents
my past experiences..
A part of me
wants to feel
the lines creasing the sheets,
A part of me
bleeds like spilling ink,
A part of me
just wants to burn
with the smokes of memories
going up in ashes..

©AKD

Back To My Old Ways

Caught between
change and
my toxic ways,
Persuading my brain
that the pain
will bring change
but was it for the better?
I wonder if it was
worth the effort..
Maybe the sacrfice
didn’t measure
with the life that I wanted
So instead I’m caught up
with the empty promises
and life has a funny
way of showing you
dead leaves and broken bottles.
I guess I over-bottled
and the feelings
couldn’t handle
the pressure.
Caught between the pressure
to keep going
but my toxic ways
keeps persuading my brain
that the pain
will bring change
but was it for the better?
Was it worth the effort?
©AKD

No Closure

Don’t hold on

to your worst parts.
Sometimes reality
hits when you realize
they’re gone,
You’re staying strong
for the sake of not moving on
You’re like a dark cloud in
night time,
Pouring down with memories
of bad times,
you want the good, but they’re gone..
And now, you’re gone.
But what’s wrong with
moving on?
Don’t hold on
to your goodbye’s
Night time is transition to
sunrise
You’re staying strong
for the sake of not moving on
Reality hits when you realize
they’re gone.
Move on.
©AKD

Indifferent

Feelings was mutual,
I guess this is
how we’re ending the usual.
It’s unusual that I’m
caught up with my head,
and my heart walking straight
to the exit.
I didn’t mean for the indifference
but what was mission?
What was I missing?
Maybe I’m tripping
by tripping on feelings..

I guess this is indifference..
I realize I wasn’t in this
in full commitment.

Feelings was mutual
I guess, this is
how we’re ending the usual.
It’s unusual that I’m caught up
with my head,
and my heart walking straight to the exit..
but I got the message.

©AKD

 

Disappointed

I will love you
through the bad news.
I know that your mother died
and your colors turned
black and blue,
Down to the real you.
I can love someone with
broken tunes,
I thought I would show myself
to you.
By then you’ll be a disappointed fool.
“I trusted you”
Trust is like taboo
I never loved you,
I never cared for your bad news.
I know that your mother died
I know at the time, I was all that you needed to confide,
But, this is new
“For better or for worse right?”
That was the “fight” or “flight”
“For rich or for poor..”
I was losing my mind
By then you’ll be a disappointed fool
With colors turning black and blue.

©AKD